Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Man of my Dreams

Dear Future Husband,

I was thinking about you again last night, wondering how you were doing. It is strange to think that you are out there somewhere, living your life, going about your business just like I am. I could already know you, or you could be a complete stranger, but I like to think about you and hope that you are happy and doing well. I wonder if you ever think about me? Not about me specifically, but the idea of who you want me to be, how you see our lives together. I have come to believe that the more I think about you and dream about what I want you to be, the faster I will find you—draw us to each other.

I know you are a smart, kind and caring man. I know that you are funny and witty—you have a sharp and quick sense of humor just like I do. I know that you can appreciate the finer things in life, like good wine and powerful music and classic literature, but that you can still tilt back your head and sing along to the latest top 40 crap and enjoy the simple, uncomplicated side of life too. I know that you will always be there to listen to me, to be willing to hear every rambling story, every complicated emotion. I hope that when we meet you will free some of the thoughts that are tumbling around in my head. I think they are waiting for you, waiting for the right person to share them with. I know you will be able to take care of me, but also be someone who will let me take care of him. I know our love and our lives will be completely balanced and I will never again have to feel like a burden to the ones I love—needing too much, feeling too deeply, caring too intensely, because our feelings for each other will be equal. Our understanding of each other’s needs, desires, fears, and dreams will be in sync so completely that neither of us will have to wonder again. I will never doubt your love and you will never have to doubt mine. You will be my best friend, my solid ground, but you won’t take yourself too seriously—it is, as they say, only life after all.

You love dogs of course, and traveling too, and you definitely aren’t someone that minds getting your hands dirty trying new things. You aren’t too sentimental, but you understand when it counts. Like me, I know you are looking for a partner in crime, someone to complete your life. We will love and laugh like never before and I will never want for that again. Our lives will be full, but simple, uncomplicated and complete. I cannot wait to meet you, I cannot wait to share you with my family and friends. I know they will be so proud of you, I already am. I cannot wait to know how you will make me feel.

I didn’t use to believe you existed. I didn’t think I deserved you, but I am changing and growing and learning like never before and now I cannot believe that I ever doubted you. I know it might be a while before we actually meet, but I am here, I am ready, I am waiting for that moment every single day. I am so excited and I already love you, I just can’t wait to show you how much.

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